::::No Promises:::

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life.

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.

No Promises – Shane Ward Song Lyrics

:::: Faithful Rihanna::::

First Lemme write the whole song (I am typing the whole song,,, its not just copy-paste)

"Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be
A murderer

I have been listening to this song since last two days and I came to the conclusion that Rihanna wasn't unfaithful... At least she knew what she was doing and she could feel the pain of her ex... She thought of her ex every moment while cheating on him...

If you call yourself unfaithful then what will the girls call themselves who treat even worse to their parteners...Chill lady! Its your life... He should not interfere in your ways... Tell him you dont love him and if he cant live without you... Kill him than just leaving him alone... Death is just a glimpse of what the actual feelings are for the guy....

I am ready to be killed.... Yes you can kill me ....

::::Excuse ME::::

Yes, I am drunk and this time its too much..... Reason???? Sandy!!! It was because of the biggest fraud you will ever experience in your whole life... The pictures.....
Lanka was so happy today. We met after a long time and he was so excited to show his pictures with his love and I never had the guts to say what I just came across today. I couldn't say him that we broke up coz he would ask me the reason and I can't lie to him or anyone of my friends. So it was better to hide everything from him. He showed me the pictures with his love with him and What would I show him,,,, The pictures of my love with someone else"...

Six years of complete failure......Yes, I celebrated my failure today with my friends.... I celebrated the lie that I have been promised during the six years... I celebrated the feelings that she has for me...
Thank you lady.... Thanks a lot..... This was a nice one....

I wish I hadn't such lovely parents for whom I'll have to live otherwise this would have been my last post,,,,,

My confidence, my trust, my love were trashed like they are nothing to anyone.... Please Lord help me overcome this ... This is killing me.... Its not something that I can handle... I am not used to these things......

Excuse me for all the shit above.... but I cant stop my fingers..... They are writing anything and everything.... Never knew I can lose control after drinks......

I cant hate you... never but after this day......... should I love you????/

::::IF I COULD, I WOULD::::

Hiii!!!! Its 3 in the morning and I am having a very bad headache. Earlier a disprin tablet helped but nowadays these are ineffective on me. Since few weeks I have been suffering from insomnia and I know what the reason is. Hmmmm….. This is one of the worst phases in my life till now. I just want these things to end as soon as possible. So many problems at the same time. Its just impossible to handle so many things together. Issues at personal level, private level, family level and social level…… No one can imagine what am I going through at present… Just trying to find the few moments of joy in the whole 24 hours….
If I could I would have escaped 2 years henceforth so that I get out of this phase. Rather it would be a better idea to move 5 years in reverse direction….. “Those were the best days of my life”. Tension regarding papa’s injured hand… It has been ages (8 months is a very long duration) and still the retarded docs say we need to wait and watch….Crap!!! Grandfather’s instability in health….. Sometimes nature behaves too rude to him……
I myself am suffering from chest pain, neck pain, cough and shoulder ache… but can’t discuss my sickness with anyone as this would hint about my smoking habits. Moreover, these days I am up to chewing…. Not gums, I mean the Gutkas…….. Apparently these are the reasons for my sudden degradation in health.
Life never seemed so monotonous and never did solitude seemed so distracting. The tension of campus placements has already mounted and its increasing day by day…….“Will I get a good job?” This is what I keep asking myself…..
You were the best part of my life…. Why did you do this??? How could you change so soon….. It hurts being ignored so badly in just 20 days…. I know it was always my fault to believe blindly in long-distance things…… Wish you good luck and safe future…. Hope you win trust and love at least for yourself this time……. I failed but you shouldn’t…..
Anyways, Just wish these times were ephemeral and does not hassle my life for long…… God bless….