::::PHIR MOHABBAT:::::

"DIL SAMBHAL JA ZARA, PHIR MOHABBAT KARNE CHALA HAI TU", sung by Mohd. Irfan, Arijit and Saim Bhat from the movie Murder 2. Nah, I am not going to discuss the movie or music of Murder 2. I just want to say that this is the most apt song which I need to sing for myself at this perplexed situation of mine. Why do you keep thinking about her? Why don’t you have anything to do but think about the moments spent with her, for her. What has happened to your determination to forget her? Are you in love the second time????? Leave the second time, did you actually want to break up the first time????? Just think what she has done to you:::

:::Devil Sandy::::

Last 1 year has not been easy for you, Hats off to your control of emotions and nonchalant behavior in front of everyone. Screw you man!! This will always remain a mystery whether you needed to discuss the weird thoughts that you had about her. Things are over. She is moving on. As predicted, two-three days were enough for her to get over the feelings and the memories of the first love. If she can forget you why can’t you do it. She had hidden rather has hidden and will hide all those stuffs forever from you.. Mr. Zukerberg, I don’t know whether I should thank you or curse you for your superb, incredible invention "FACEBOOK". It was you who let me know about her and her so called friend circle.. We used to say people from our education system are broadminded. If that’s what "being broadminded" is all about I am ashamed at myself for being so. Few days before I had a text from a friend "Only 1% of girls marry their boyfriends, rest remain the passwords to the boys' email id". And she is the password to your bank account and she will be always because you don’t know how to change it....aaahhh!!! That’s a excuse you don’t want to change it...

3 years ago, you were apprehensive about this relationship but you had always been confident from your side and she had made you believe that no matter what happens you will be together... You had the feeling that its not easy to be different. "4 years, different colleges, different places, different states, no meeting, minimal knowledge about the well being of each other and still the relation is a successful one" Cut the crap!!! Are you kidding... How on earth is this possible!!! Never... Never... Never..... You had just experienced it, no human being is different and moreover she is a girl and you are not TOM CRUISE lol... It had to happen someday. Just imagine yourself in her place and give it a thought "Many guys around you, they are friends to you, they are open to you, they talk to you on phone, they continuously send messages to you, the guys try talking everything with you "everything"". How long can you restrict yourself.. One day or the other you are going to give up.. Long distance relationships are always bullshit!!! They never work nor will work. The commitments limit themselves to words... It is very difficult to actually commit to your partners when you are a girl. You had witnessed it earlier with your batch mate who had also done the same thing but at least she was pure and she admitted what she did and confessed it to her ex. the fact cannot be denied that she loved you but she loved only you?????? She couldn't bear the responsibilities that a committed person should have. She cheated you one way or the other. Moreover you didn’t break up on mere doubts but you have seen her chat history... is it possible for anyone to continue the relation after seeing that... The messages that you don't want to remember the contents. You had expected that she will have male friends when she goes to college but did you expect those messages what you had seen with your own eyes????? You couldn’t discuss these things with her,,, Did you have the courage to speak up what the reasons were for this incomplete relation. You always tried to give your 100% but your inner conscience never let you feel the freedom to talk to her.

:::Angel Sandy:::

Previously she was yours, later she was yours but not yours only and now she is not yours... Your love was never a show off neither was hers but things change, people change ... You have two options either stay with it and keep dying every day without uttering a word but speaking to yourself OR break up so that she doesn’t need to love you anymore. She can live her life the way she wants and with anyone she wants. Love her but don’t force her to love you... No one has a problem if you love her. Just don’t let her know that. Just remember what did you text Aditya Vardhan about his love failure "If you try to get love with the use of some external force or power that is not the feeling you want from her". Now the same applies to you, you have failed in relationship, the relationship ends but love never dies. Don’t force yourself to hate her. Remember the days:

When she was everything to you. When your day wasn’t a success if you didn’t talk to her or didn’t meet her. She was pure. You hadn't told her the future you had planned with her. What were you so scared of??? If you love her accept the fact. She is everything to you, how does it matter if she doesn’t love you anymore. Ok, you are jealous when you imagine her with someone else but you can’t stop anything. These are a part of the natural phenomena that keep on happening so that there is equilibrium between success and failure. Whatever you do now, she can never be yours.. You have to believe this and live with it... The good part about this "THE END" is that she doesn't know what are the actual reasons for such an abrupt end. You have convicted yourself for all the happenings during this one year. You said you didn't feel any connection now---"Was there any day or any moment when you did not think about the future of you both and this relationship"----You said you both didn't interact----"Didn't you want to talk to her always even when you were the most busy with work..... You just did this so that she feels that you don’t want to talk to her"------You said you wanted her to have her own space------" Dude!!! You had never objected on anything regarding her personal space and you knew what was going on with her personal life... you knew she had her own personal life which she was enjoying very well... you just pretended to be innocent of everything"...... You told her you have a very bad future----" Did you ever think of future without her,,, And yes life for you without her is definitely not going to be a superb one lol"-----

The pain that you were suffering from since the last 1 year made you lose all your emotions... Now, its time to heal all the wounds in your heart that was caused during this period... Now you don’t need to keep believing that she loves you. . . New world, new life ....."She loved you, you love her"...... You need to work on your future... You need to work for the love and commitment that you were a part of... The decision to crap up or "break up" was justified and you don’t need to regret that anymore...It’s time to speak up:::

:::Loser Sandy:::

I love you baby,, I miss you.. Though you weren’t fair to me and my love,, I don’t blame you for that--- that can happen to anyone and everyone depending on the situations around...I knew that, in a month you would have done the same what I did now, as you too had no option but leave me.. I made it easy for you.. Now, you can enjoy your life and so called friends lol...

But I will love you and I will live for you and I will talk to you. Huh..:):):):) you do not know I have your recorded voice with me:):):).... Anyways, love you forever....And yes I have a bad future because you are not with me.......:(:(:(